Days Blur Together

Days just run by. I'm not gonna lie. My life is, actually, pretty boring. And it's funny because I'm just realizing that.

Last night I was looking at art work on dA. My mom was walking past my room and she said "How are you?" I looked up from my computer screen and looked at her "Fine." I answered. She grinned "Whatchya doin'?" she asked. I looked up at her again "Nothing. Just looking at art work." I replied "Really?" she questioned. I nodded.

There was a moment of silence. I thought she was going to leave, so I went back to looking at art. But then she spoke again, so I looked back up at her "Are you bored?" she asked, I raised an eyebrow. Of course I wasn't bored. Did I look bored? Before I could say something she spoke again "With life, I mean. Are you bored with life right now?" she rephrased the question.

Usually I answered 'no' to this question, but this time I wasn't just gonna go through the drills. I actually sat and thought about it for a moment. I looked at my computer screen, then back at her for a moment. Then I remembered that the days are just starting to blur together. I thought we were on Tuesday, but it's Thursday. I thought we were on week 2 of October, but we're on week 3.

I shrugged then nodded, being completely 100% honest with myself this time "Yeah... A little bit.. Yeah, I am." my mother chuckled "Well, I could always give you more chores, you could get a job, and you could do more stuff with chi alpha."

I shook my head "No more chores. Chores are ok where they're at. I wanna wait until I have a car to get a job. And chi alpha. Yeah. I will soon. Maybe." I answered. My mom raised her eyebrow "Well, artic circle is just up the road." I nodded "Yeah. But it's too far. What if I'm running late? How will I get there in a one minute's time? I can't."

She raised an eyebrow "Well, it's getting cold so don't worry about getting a car." I shrugged. Then that means I'll have to wait a really long time to get a job. Plus I still need my license. I went back to looking at my computer screen.

After a few more moments of silence I looked up again at the sound of my moms voice "So what's wrong? No social life?" I nodded "Yup." she smiled "Well, there's always chi alpha." she said, I shrug and look back at my computer screen.

But chi alpha isn't even an option. I don't think my mom understands how embarrassing it is to have to be driven everywhere from my mom or dad to college events. It's not the best feeling. Which is why I've kinda stopped going. It's an embarrassment for me to have to be driven because I don't even have my license. I'm 19 years old, and I still don't have my license. It's stupid.

I look back up at my mom as she speaks once again "Would you like a cookie?" I nodded "Sure." she smiled and left, and after a few moments she returned with a red velvet cookie. I smiled as she handed it to me, and bit into it. Oh, yum! So delicious! I love red velvet!